DTS Part one

So I'm really not even sure how to begin with explaining the first three months of DTS (all you who have done a DTS knows what I mean) but I will do my best.

Walking onto my base in Honolulu Hawaii I had no idea what I was getting myself into but I knew that something had to happen because I had nothing left. God saw this and used it to the fullest. It has never been that hard for me to make friends or at least fit in with a big group, but the first few days of DTS were really hard, I cant pin point what it was all I know is that God pulled me aside to have some alone time with me and prepare me a little bit for what was about to happen.

I was coming into all of this from a very dark and broken place (as I have mentioned before) So after a few days of struggling to see that I actually had know idea who I was and that I did need God in my life, we had the first of many 'Base Worship' this was one of the powerful/life changing nights of my life. God at that very moment toke a hold of my life and broke through all the walls I had tried to build against him. He made sure I knew and heard him loud and clear that he loved me enough to dye so that he could forgive me and take away all my sin. It may sound corny but that is the reason he died, we sang a song "lead me to the cross" which hit me hard;

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
The word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

It was that night where I truly broke and laid all I had at his feet and allowed him to "ruin me from the ordinary". A side note to that night was that it wasnt like I was the only one who was broken but it was truly my whole school (36 students) all at similar points in our walk which was very powerful.

From that night on it was truly a non-stop crazy intense ride with Christ! We would have a different speaker every week who would speak on a different topic each week such as; old and new testament, hearing the voice of God, discipline and evangelism, kingdom of God(favorite week), healthy relationships, intimacy with God, intercession and spiritual authority, the Holy Spirit, character of God, servant hood, discipleship, and world religions! 7 years of church in 3 months!!!

Of course it was very overwhelming but the amazing thing with YWAM is that you are surrounded with a support system of people who truly care and want to help you grow and deal with the past and what God is trying to do in you. The fellowship that is offered is exactly what is need when going through such spiritual growth, and the openness to how big God is and how much he is able to do and that he is more then a big eye in the sky but he is my father, best friend, lover, and saviour!

God had (and still has) a hold of my life and put it upside down and shook everything that didn't come from him and that didn't belong out of it. I have never been through so many ups and downs, breakdown and pure joy but then i have never felt such love and so close to someone who loves me way more then I even understand. He has changed my life. I am not saying that I'm perfect and totally get everything now that I have done a DTS, no that is not what I am saying! I'm saying that he has shown me a new way to life, and I was open to hearing what my calling was and he was right there to tell me.... GO!